Once Upon A Time I Write Here A Lot
Posted: January 19th, 2010 | Author: Joy | Filed under: Featured | 3 Comments »Now? Not so much. I mean, barely, if at all.
I’m sitting here numb from repetitive tasks for today (and only for today, thank goodness!) and I have the sudden urge to type-speak. I don’t feel like picking up the phone to babble to someone, but just let everything flow through my fingers.
Last week I started an online course called Mondo Beyondo and it’s a 5-week course about “Dreaming Big”. I dream big on some days, but on most days I get bogged down by what’s happening in the Now, what concerns me Now, what ails me Now. I’ve forgotten how to dream and build a dream in my mind and actually get it.
Do you believe in dreaming? Wishing beyond what you think would be possible in your lifetime? I did this years before without even knowing it. I let my mind loose. I was in a horrible place, but I let my imagination wonder and wander. I built on that dream in my mind one detail at a time. The more I think about it, the more it becomes vivid, and there came a time when the gap between my dream and reality became more little. And eventually, I am living it. The more I think about it the more I ask myself why the heck did I stop there?
Complacency? Did I get too comfortable? I won’t discount that theory. It’s easy to be that.
This year, 2010, is my ME-year. I will take care of myself, nurture myself and let myself dream big. Dream of things I don’t think would be possible, but nevertheless, I will. Because I can. It’s free to dream, yes?
On a comment I left on a blog of a writer, I mentioned that I’ve been blogging since the early 2000, and she made a remark that the archives on my blog is only 2 years old at most. Most visitors of my more publicized blog don’t know this URL, where the half of it happened. I meant to do something worthwhile with this, and I’m still trying to figure out what, really.
I have the same problem with Living Juicy. I’m thinking of transforming it to more of a portfolio site, but for now, it hold all my years of blogging. I’ve been thinking of archiving it for myself and letting it go. It seems apropos that my anti-spam word is move.
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Joy Reply:
January 21st, 2010 at 7:18 am
Syd, I’ve been thinking about it forever and a day: transform it into a portfolio site (or a portal of all of my other sites) or just…let it go. Letting it go (then eventually giving up the domain name) is harder than I thought. I didn’t realize I was so attached to it.
My anti-spam words here, when comment from the site and not from the admin side, are quite interesting — sometimes I think they like to pretend they’re fortune cookies. Hah.
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she made a remark that the archives on my blog is only 2 years old at most.
i find that kind of rude to say -_- and i remember your old URL, hay good ol’ days!
and i’m still here sistar, stalking your blog once in a while.
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