Archive for August, 2009
Posted on August 26, 2009 - by Joy
Life on the Scenic View
Sometimes you can’t hurry life, plan things ahead, and live according to plan. And that’s what Plan B is about: just sit, wait, and might as well enjoy the ride as the scenes come.
Posted on August 24, 2009 - by Joy
Quiet Monday
We were expecting visitors today but they never came. My mother got the dates mixed up. That’s one thing to be thankful for this day: one peaceful evening. Early dinner, a luscious chocolate cake is being made and I’m taking a moment to blog here while I try to rest my mind. Head feels like it’s about to explode: both physically, because of a massive headache, and psychologically because of everything that’s happening.
I had a medical scan taken today and I won’t know the results until sometime later this week. I don’t want to worry about it, but the possibility of the worse that could happen hit me this afternoon. I realize that Life really is so short.
When I think about all the worries I have now, I ask myself: would they really matter 5 years from now? It’s good to realign ourselves once in a while. I’m bogged down by a lot of things that I need to evaluate what it is that I’m sending out to the universe that I am getting these back, without reverting to beating up myself for them. And instead, work on improving.
I don’t like bothering, or having to depend on, other people. I’ll try to do everything that I need on my own. However, it was nice to have a good friend go with me today to the lab. It’s a simple thing, but it meant a lot to me.
So that’s Monday, I guess. A quiet one for a change. I’ll go back to the kitchen to finish my cake now.
Posted on August 17, 2009 - by Joy
Things Have Been Chaotic
I’m sure this would please a few people, knowing that I am not all “together” these days. But whatever.
What I’m learning to do these days is to LET GO of things I have no control of, because well–there’s nothing I can do about it. For someone who likes to do, contribute and help, it is one of the hardest things to learn. I like being involved. I like making a difference.
I’m frazzled at the moment and I have a cup of coffee on my side table. I’m mulling over a few things: finances, near-future plans, scheduled events, health, and other errands. There are bits and pieces of them that I cannot change. I can keep cursing all I want but it won’t make a difference. To add insult to injury, it is very exhausting. Feeling my blood boil now..
I really have to catch myself and breathe. Breathe it out. No sense in delving in the matter.
Today…tonight…things are just boiling and spilling over and there’s nothing I can do about it but have a change of attitude towards it. Do what I can, and trust that the rest will be taken cared of.
